Amy had always thought she was too vain and selfish to seriously contemplate suicide, also too afraid of pain. She realized now that when she'd thought that, she hadn't understood how painful existence could get. It could get so painful, it turned out, that any other kind of pain began to seem preferable. She felt ridiculous thinking these goth-teenager thoughts, but they were real. Emily Gould
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Amy's life had changed in ways she couldn't have imagined. She was not the same person she used to be. She'd never been able to imagine herself doing what she did when she was in her teens. To her surprise, she'd actually wanted to die.

Now, when she thought about suicide, she didn't want it to be painful. She didn't want to feel the pain of the drugs sweeping through her body, or the horror of watching herself die.

Source: Friendship

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